[A/N: So this idea sprung from a combination of two things. First, seeing this artwork of a long-haired Byleth that Intsys were too cowardly to do in the game. Second, the idea that Edelgard wouldn’t recognise a dishevelled Byleth coming back, except for the boobs she had stared at too much. It amused me so much I had to try to turn it into a fic.
Sothis’s speech felt like a good way of opening things. I wrote another scene after that, but ended up deleting it. Cutting right to Edelgard felt like a better option, even if it kinda sucked to delete all that work.]
“You… How long do you intend to sleep?”
“Your body is awake. Your eyes must open now, and you must find the strength to stand upon those legs of yours.”
“Like so much rain, a pool of blood has fallen to the ground… As spears and arrows pierce the ground, it weeps. And even now… it weeps.”
“In order to survive, they kill. And so, the people of this world are lost in an abyss of suffering. They weep as well.”
“The only one who truly knows the nature of such things is I… or rather, you.”
“I’m still sleepy…”
“You are a complete and utter fool! Have you not changed one bit?! Get on your feet. Right now! I will coddle you no more! You are just like a child, always needing me to hold your hand…”
[A/N: Listen, I know Fodlan doesn’t actually have Christmas, this is just a silly idea I got obsessed with. It would probably be Seirosmas, or maybe Sothismas if it was a thing. But this is not a story meant to be taken seriously.
Honestly I would rename the season Chris-mas, in honour of our floof and saviour Yukine Chris.]
Christmas had never been a big thing for Edelgard. At least not for as long as she could remember. Maybe it had been different when she was very young. Though she wouldn’t say she hated it either, she just didn’t feel any connection to it.
I guess it’s nice for the kids, she thought as she watched some children outside place a santa hat on a snowman. But it’s not really for me. I’m too old now anyway. Adults shouldn’t make a fuss about such things.
“Hey, El!” said a voice behind her.
“Yes?” She turned around to look, and what she saw nearly made her jaw drop.
[A/N: “Working on long fics is too hard at the moment,” I said. “I should focus on shorter ideas until I get back into things,” I said. And then shortly after I start this thing which took me about three weeks to finish. Maybe some day I will learn to take my own advice when I know it’s what’s best for me.
I had the idea of wanting to do a modern AU fic where Byleth’s mother was still alive. Sadly the game never names her (afaik), so I had to make up my own name. I just wanted a happy family life for them. Which then expanded in scope as I wanted to add some Edeleth “fated reunion” + “childhood promise” romance to it too.
This is a bit different from my usual “modern AU” MO of just transposing as much of the setup as possible to a different setting, and not really changing much. Instead actually trying to think up new roles, statuses, and interpretations for the various characters for once. Not that I go completely off the wall with it or anything. Just tried doing something that fit the story better.
I did have to rein myself in a bit. I realised fairly early on that I couldn’t just add a bunch of the characters to this. Some are mentioned in passing, some are alluded/hinted to as being part of the wider setting, but the number of actively participating characters is kept pretty small. This is already long enough without trying to incorporate even more stuff. I do have to aim for actually completing my fics at some point. *quietly hides all my unfinished drafts in a cupboard*
My one big worry is that since it was written across such a long period of time, and some days I wasn’t able to write at all, it will not feel as coherent as it would if I had been able to write at a more steady, continual pace. Hopefully it still turned out okay. That’s probably enough of these author’s notes though, I should let you actually read the fic.]
[A/N: Sorry it’s been so long. After I posted the last chapter all my creative drive just dried up, and died off. I started writing this on the 14. September, over a month ago, and I remember noting that in the first week I only managed to write 87 words. Normally I’d be able to write something like this in a day or two. And even with all that time, it still feels kinda half-baked to me. Most days have just been zero output whatsoever.
Unfortunately AO3 doesn’t really have a way for me to post status updates, so I wasn’t able to keep you all updated. Tweets and fic notes are all I have. And the latter requires actually having something to post.
This is quite possibly the last chapter I’m posting to this fic, unless I happen to suddenly find some inspiration and motivation. I’m really sorry it isn’t any sort of a conclusion. I know some of you got a bit invested. But I just need to get it out at this point. Stick a fork in it, isn’t that what they say? Hopefully that will loosen up some things, and maybe I can at least move on to something else. At the very least I don’t have to keep thinking about finishing this chapter.
Right, I should definitely link to the member list considering how long it’s been.]
I managed to pay attention in class today
Huh? You haven’t been paying attention before now?
lately there have been
[A/N: This might be the most excited I’ve been to write anything in a while. Thank you very much to Rose for helping me brainstorm this whole thing. I hope it’s as fun for you as it was for me.
Edit: Right I should remember to keep linking the member list.]
What’s wrong with Edelgard?
Bernie! Shouldn’t you be resting? Are you feeling better already?
Not really, but I’m very bored.
It’s because of what happened during sports day today.
[A/N: After two chapters in rapid succession this weekend it was nice to take a day off, but I was too tempted to get back into it to stay away for longer than that.
Only really two things to note this time. 1) I am too fond of happy endings to keep drama going for very long. If you’ve followed my previous writing in other fandoms you’re probably aware. 2) Edelgard being an Edelgay disaster is much too fun.
Oh, and 3) This fic has now passed 400 kudos, somehow. You’re only encouraging me, you know.
If you need a refresher on who everyone is, here’s a link to the list.]
Quick! Someone ask me why I’m giddy!
okay. why are you giddy?
[A/N: I typically try to take at least a day’s break between chapters to give my brain a rest. To make it easier to come up with new stuff, and hope it’s actually good. But this time stuff just really wanted to get written, as I try to give a bunch of stuff some progress. Just a bunch of smaller ideas shoved together.
Dorothea shows a more vulnerable side for once, and Flayn is actually in the school! The transfer student idea wanted to make it in there, so I let it enter. Still not decided on whether she’s joining the chat. Not right away, at least. Like Ingrid she is rather lacking on the f/f A-rank supports. Heck, she has almost no f/f supports at all, so I’m not sure how she interacts with the other girls. I just like the idea of El getting a bit jealous. I’m evil.
If you want to know who’s who in chat, I made a list you can find here.]
how did it go with Ingrid @Primadonna? Mercie told me you went to speak with her alone.
Yeah, I did.
It didn’t go great. She felt I was just butting in where I had no business to, and didn’t really want to listen to me. So I had to play my trump card.
Your trump card?
[A/N: I had intended to keep this series as light and fluffy as possible, but once I entered exposition/world-building mode I got carried away. I couldn’t really find a way to fix it, so my two options were basically to either scrap it, or post it anyway, and… I’m sorry. I hope it won’t bore too many people.
Credit where credit is due: This chapter was built on ideas provided by other people. Ruff_Ethereal and I were talking about an MMO a while back, and I ended up adapting that, while the Ingrid idea came from Rose.
And since it could be useful, I created a list of everyone’s handles, and who’s behind them. Everyone who’s shown up so far, at least. More will be added as/if it becomes relevant.]
Hubert just confirmed it
professor Byleth is the Ashen Demon
She’s the what?
You don’t mean from Warcries?
yup, that’s exactly what I mean
[A/N: I took a break over the weekend to play through Astral Chain, but now I’m back on my bullshit. I had hoped to write yesterday, but it took a little while to readjust my brain. Astral Chain is very good, btw.
Part of this chapter is an idea I got from my friend Rose. Her fanfics of my fanfics I sometimes take, and put it in my own stuff. I try to remember to credit her when I do.
I was also reminded more of how Discord works, with the @s and all that. So incorporated that a bit this time. Not going to make it retroactive though.]
How did your date go @BernieBear?
Petra was very nice, but… I was so nervous. Kept messing up everything. I don’t think I’m made for dating.
I’m sure that’s not true.
[A/N: One chapter is all the break Edelgard is getting. Get back to your gay panic, young lady. I guess this is kinda based on an actual event in the game. Also trying to come up with modern analogies for how things work in the game is hard, but probably easier than trying to come up with entirely new backstories. At least that’s my excuse.]
So who’s coming to horror night this weekend?
I’ve gotten some really good ones this time.
I’ll be there.
I should be able to make it.
I’ll come if there’s homemade snacks.
I’m not great with that stuff, so no thanks.